Saturday, July 31, 2010

I just had a sudden urge to blog, since my diary is ruined after my bag got flooded. Maybe it is supposed to let me stop writing anymore, cause why in the world would my diary appear in my school bag. \:
WOOHOO life's been great, pretty well enjoyed. Think sharing thoughts to people would be much better than keeping it to yourself. It's impossible for me to keep stuff to myself(I DON'T KNOW WHYY) but it stops me from worrying too much and stressing myself out. Some stuff really can't get out of my mind, and I am really praying hard for her. I really hope that she would change, and nothing would go wrong with her. She has a good personality, nice features, awesome character, however these big mistakes just take a long time to heal. I try not to think, but I can't. Sometimes, you just need one big mistake to cause trouble which can never be resolved. Now, most importantly it's to give moral support for her, and to divert her from all these and giving her little attentions that can make her think sensibly. Let's continue to believe and carry hope for her, and show her from right and wrong, and guide her along. Let's support her, and show her that these can all be changed with determination. I really don't care about what people say about me, though all these didn't start with me, but I know a person like you would have a bright future with the willingness to change. Now we can see the big difference in you, and I hope you would continue to change for the better. I am really happy to meet you as a friend, you have given me so much fun in raffles. You put me n a position where I can find my true self, and all these changes has led me feel really really happy. I know i have changed quite a lot due to you, but all these has made me happy. We enjoyed much moments together, under the sun, on the track, and under the lights of shopping malls. You bear with my angstiness and hype me up constantly. I really hoped that I have never known all these, and now i can only treat all these as something that you have never committed. Though i am throughly freaked out, but I also constantly think of memories we had, when I was ignorant of anything. I want to put everything I know aside, but the thought of it just... though you are like that, you teach me right value. Not to spend too much time on other stuff, and study. We have common interest, and I have really never ever regretted knowing you. Those precious moments we had, and I really want more of them. I hope for the best, and may god bless you. <3 when you fall, just pick yourself up and continue the journey. Let's hold hands, and walk along, alright?
Thanks so much sabrina, I didn't regret telling you all these too. You are really encouraging, and my views changed yesterday. You taught me what to do and not to aviod from all these, to guide her along and find the right road for her. I thought you were right, as friends, we should really help her. Continue to pray for her alright (: I guess all these small little things we do for her would help, and she will really appreciate it.yes, i really need to stop thinking about all these and concentrate on the help i can give her, all the support.
REALLY ENVIOUS OF NETBALL TEAM ): I think the whole team knows me now hahahah.
A lot of things happened this month. Not all happened to me, but within peers. I know my life is interesting(to melly) but when you know all these, you feel all the other dasy round. Like really affected by them. Gahh i don't know how to explain but it just affects my mood. Like E's and E's esp. It was really a big thing that I know and it kinda can never be helped. Sometimes I need advise from A but I really can't tell her. So I tell M and C but.. sigh THEY CAN'T ADVISE THAT MUCH AS A. I just pour everything to M, and yeah she advises, but not those advises that I can really use to help E and E, but it just gives me a peace of my back. Thanks M and C for listening to my rants and complains,cause it really helps when I just tell it out. J's a freaking big mouth, actutally not really but she freaking doesn't advise so I don't tell her a think. M2 knows about E and E even before I told M1 and I hope she keeps it to heart. sigh FML. Think it's rant time to C on fri! ):
(melly, I have never kept anything to you, really. I told you everything under the world!)
YESSSSSSSSSSSS LIFE'S REALLY FUN ON THE OTHER HAND. (: thanks elvina leeeeee for lunchtimes everyweek. sam for all the laughter in class, and to retarded melly. amanda and merissa boh for all the fun! and yihui, evonne. :D and charmaine, tessa, richelle, boh, henghwee, tiffany, jasmine, sab for LIGHTSTICK NIGHT yesterday! + all those funnnn.
oh swimtathon was awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. I thought pressure could make me swim fast fast fast! <3 but it was really fun.
Now I must learn not to stress myself so much. I am always injuring myself these few weeks. From knee to shoulders to knee again. ): sometimes I force myself more, like 50 continuous laps or 8+-9+ km, but I would end up injuring somewhere the next day. I don't think and just go for it. Guesss i am only determined to exercise, never to sit down and study FOR NOW >:( but I really really want to try to complete marathon next time like C cause it's super duper cool right! :D M let's go for one together next time kay, don't be lazy lazy and say you have no stamina! \:
please please please don't focus on realtionships now. ):